We are broken.
Yesterday, my children and I, along with many, many family and friends and colleagues participated in the ritual we call a funeral.
I guess that is supposed to end it.
But the pain in my heart goes on and I don't have a recipe to fix that.
We just celebrated our wedding anniversary and recalling our vows I now know there is something false about them. Until death do us part?
No. Never. I am his, and he is mine forever.
Until we meet again my love.
Until we meet again.
Words could not adequately say how sorry I am for your loss. Know that you and your family will be in my prayers.
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There is nothing anyone can say to help you at this point; old adages about how time heals all wounds are undoubtedly wrong.
ReplyDeleteTake comfort in your family, and be grateful for the many years you had together. It won't make this all better, but it will help.
I am so sorry for your loss -- it's just devastating.
ReplyDeleteYou and your family are in my prayers.
My heart is breaking for you and I'm so very sorry for your loss. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. Love and deepest sympathy, Marguerite
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to learn about your horrible loss. My thoughts and prayers are with your fammily.
ReplyDeleteI read this and all the feelings flooded back to me again..broken..I remember there are no words to console right now, just to assure you..he will always be with you and you are not alone..take one day at a time ..one step at a time..though it seems impossible now..you are broken but you will mend. Marlene
ReplyDeleteSo, so sorry to hear your news. No cliches, just wishing you well.
ReplyDeleteI am so, so sorry to hear this.
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry for your loss, my heart is aching for you.
ReplyDeleteI am so so sorry. Even though I only know you from the posts you write and I have never commented before now, my heart breaks and cries for you and your children and all the people that loved him. I pray for you and your children.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry...words are inadequate. You and your family are in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteI am SO sorry. Your words to him on your anniversary were wonderful. I'm glad you shared them with the world. He knows you love him. ♥
ReplyDeleteyou and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeletesincerely, Jane
NO! Oh my dear...know our hearts and minds are with you, as tears roll down our faces as well.
ReplyDeleteI am more sorry for your loss than words can even attempt to convey. So. Very. Sorry. Take care of yourself. He would want you to, I'm sure.
ReplyDeleteI'm so, so sorry to read your post. I remember the day my step-father passed suddenly. I was 27. My mom knew something wasn't right as he hadn't returned her call and always did. She found him- the man she'd been with for 18 years but only just married the year before; the love of her life- when she came home from work. I got a call from a friend who had happened to call my mom. She woke me from an evening nap on the couch and told me what happened. I raced to her house- a good 45 minutes. She was broken. She was shocked and we all stood dumbfounded. I wasn't married yet, but I was in love with a man that I'd been with for 8 years and I stood there imagining what it would be like for him to suddenly be gone. I'd be lost. She was now lost and there was nothing I could do to fix that or take it away. We found our way through the memorial service and the weeks that followed. It's been ten years now. It took her a long time to find her way through the sadness, but slowly, slowly she did. I know that "company" doesn't make this "misery" any easier. But know that you are not alone. I'm so sorry for you and your children.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for your loss. Please know that you and your family are in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteI am so so sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you, your children, and your family and friends.
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I am so very sorry for your tragic loss. I will certainly keep you and your children in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteI don't know you, Odie Langley sent me over, with a pain in my heart and tears in my eyes, I will be lifting you up in prayer.
ReplyDeleteI have no words- sorry is not enough to say how devastating this news is, as it has always been very apparent just how in love with him you are. I am praying for you. Hold your kids tight- and know that you will meet again one day.
ReplyDeleteThis is incredible, unsettling, unbelievable and beyond what I can imagine for myself.
ReplyDeleteWe are all here, if you are lonely in the middle of the night, or don't know how to fill the hours.
We are all here.
I am so incredibly sorry for your loss, and your family's loss. So very deeply sorry.
I am deeply saddened to read about your loss. I can't begin to imagine what you all must be going through. I am keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteI'm so very sorry to read this. I truly hope your wonderful memories will help get you through this sad time.
ReplyDeleteMy deepest regrets to you and your family.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear this. He will be part of your life forever. My wish for you is that the pain will subside so you can access the good memories. It will take time, I'm sure. All the best.
ReplyDeleteI just keep thinking how unfair this is. Everything you said in your anniversary note is right on. Jim was a giver not a taker in life. I am so thankful that you two found each other and made a good life together. Nothing will take those memories away. Like Father Jim said, we have to focus on what we know...and that is that he loved you and the kids with his whole heart. Love you guys Michigan skelcys 5
ReplyDeletePeace be with you in this terrible time... If there is anything anyone can do, please send an email. I'm so sorry.
ReplyDeleteUnknown Mami told me and I wanted to offer my condolences. Telling you how sorry I am seems inadequate at a time like this, but when my grandson died it did make a difference to know that someone cared. Thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
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I am so very sorry for your loss. My prayers are with you.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry. I cannot even imagine your grief.
ReplyDeleteI just noticed this post. What a lovely man. I am so sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteI am SO sorry for your loss! I can't even imagine the pain you are feeling right now. My prayers go out to you and your family!
ReplyDeleteKeep writing, my friend. Keep writing.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for your loss. I was visiting with Unknownmami and she mentioned your loss.
ReplyDeleteKeeping you in my prayers.
I am a friend of Kate (newlifesd.blogspot) & she told me of your news last week when we met up. I am so very very sorry for your loss. Reading over your posts from the past couple of weeks has me in tears in my kitchen. I'm sending all my love & virtual hugs your way. You are in my thoughts & prayers.
ReplyDeleteI'm so so sorry for your loss. I learned from Unknown Mami that your beloved husband had passed away. I can't even imagine your hurt right now. Sending you thoughts and prayers. - G
ReplyDeleteI know that there are no words that will ease your pain. I also know the frustration of hearing people say that time will make things better. If there were words that I could say I would say them. I just know that you are not alone. Death is a part of life that few people talk about. Grief takes different paths for everyone. I have lost 2 children. I feel like my experiences should at least provide me with the ability to give advice to others who are grieving - but I still have no words.
ReplyDeleteI have recently started a blog to try to deal with all of my grief. I do not want to burden you with another sad story (I know your own life is sad enough). If at some point you want to read it below is a link. Be kind to yourself and take care.
http://amourningmom.wordpress.com/2010/08/09/how-are-you/