"The pain now is part of the happiness then". - CS Lewis
Would you give up yesterday for the pain today?
For me the answer is no. I would not give up one second of our life together.
Tonight for no reason (and every reason) I cried. And cried some more.
At the the 15 month mark I can say that it is a bit easier, a bit saner, a bit less shaky. But I think of my husband and miss him daily.
At almost 15 months I have come to accept he is not coming back. Jim is gone. Our life together is done. There is no more "we".
And that is why I cried tonight.
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