I am sitting on the couch, alone and sobbing and TBHITW comes into the room and sits down beside me.
I rest my head on his shoulder and say to him, "I miss you".
He sighs and quietly says, "I know" and the tips of his fingers gently brush the tips of my fingers.
And I wake up.
It is 3:00 AM.
And I lie in bed trembling with the reality that I am going to long for him and miss him for the rest of my life.
When the sun finally rises, I get up and start another day without him.
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You will miss him for the rest of your life..... but he is watching and sending comfort.
ReplyDeleteI believe that he will be with you until he knows that you are going to be okay. There is a reason you and your family and friends are dreaming of him being close.
ReplyDeleteI hope it is bringing you some comfort having him in your dreams.
(((Hugs)))
ReplyDeleteIt's agonizing.
ReplyDeleteDr. Rob over at Musings of a Distractible Mind (I think the url is distractible.org) has a great entry up today on grief. You might not want to read it now, but you could bookmark it and go back to it sometime when you wish...
Thinking about you and yours.
:-(
ReplyDeleteSending you love. Words simply seem inadequate.
ReplyDeleteMy heart breaks for you...and my prayers go out for you, I cannot imagine how hard this is.
ReplyDeleteYou had something some never know, a love like yours...
hugs..
As I was making the bed this morning, I thought of you and what you are going through. I stood there sobbing, asking God to comfort you. How can my heart break for someone I have never met?
ReplyDeleteBut I do know you because I am a wife to a husband I love. I could be you someday and it breaks my heart just knowing what I might feel one day, you feel today.
And so I pray.....
Feeling inadequate and so sorry. :(
ReplyDelete((((HUGS)))) from me too.
ReplyDeleteOne foot in front of the other. It will get easier.
ReplyDeleteHe is there holding you up until you can stand on your own...One of he blogs I follow had a post
ReplyDeletehttp://honeyrockdawn.com/2010/09/an-anniversary/
you may be interested in reading the responses by so many who have lost someone..I send Love as always your way. Marlene
Oh Darlin',
ReplyDeleteI have been out of touch for a few weeks, and was totally unprepared for this. I have just spent the better part of an hour reading all your posts since your dear husband's passing, and I still can't believe it.
I know there are no words to comfort you, there are no answers to why it happened.
Your immeasurable grief speaks volumes of the love the two of you shared. So many couples never have, or have lost that kind of intensity. I know it's hard to fathom now, but you are very blessed, indeed, as Lord Tennyson said, to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all.
All my love and comfort I send to you,
Ethelmaepotter
I'm praying for you daily...for you comfort...but it is a long, hard road...and my heart breaks again and again for you!!! Wish I could give you a hug...I'm here for you. Love you, Janine XO
ReplyDeleteThe one thing that keeps me going is knowing, that as a Christian, that someday I will be reunited with all of those that I have loved and lost on this earth. (my grandparents, my brother, my mother, my soulmate and best friend, and many other friends and family members) And God assures us that this reunion will be forever, and that we will never be separated again. Love and hugs, Marguerite
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